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Message: [QUOTE="Mug, post: 2711739, member: 143652"] This is my personal story about how I learned how to deal with tilt, the hard way. I had a period of tilt cost me a year away from the game. I mentally couldn't handle it. I was getting married and buying a house and instead of my normal weekly withdrawal, had withdrawn a large portion of my bankroll for the first time ever. A few consecutive bad sessions and suddenly I was tilting for two weeks straight. I saw it as variance and was still playing every night, and even putting in extra hours trying to just push through. Whatever had began my spiral, I couldn't fix. I simply could not beat the players or the game. I lost all confidence, and began questioning my skill. I starting lowering my stakes and went from my peak multitabling $50+5 SnGs, to the $30s my long time stakes, to the $20s, and so on. I didn't lower stakes fast enough and lost everything down to my last $7. I took one year away from the game and kept working the job I had planned on leaving. It bothered me for much of that year. I loved the game, but didn't love what the game had done to me. It couldn't have all been my fault, could it? I thought about it constantly and eventually realized, I shouldn't have been playing poker at all at that time. I had two big life events happening at once, I was stressed and my bankroll was a fraction of what I was used to playing with. I left myself in a spot unable to absorb any negative variance, and mentally it began to affect my play. Finally I realized, I was just playing bad poker. I got back to my life and realized when I was ready I would come back to the game. One year later I log back into my account and see a whopping $7 sitting there. I think about how if I had handled everything differently I would never be in this situation. I promised myself I would take it slow and challenged myself to start in the micros, which I had never played and work myself up. I knew darn well, that a deposit was likely as I am an impatient person by nature, but it turns out it wasn't. It took about 1500 games over a period of roughly 3 months but I eventually worked my bankroll back up to 3 and then 4 figures. While still a far ways away from making withdrawals I had regained my confidence and learned a lot along the way. Two of the most important lessons were learning better bankroll management and recognizing tilt and how to handle it correctly. Unfortunately, little did I know black friday was only a few months away. I had been away from the game until about 1 month ago, and damn it feels good to be back. [/QUOTE]

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