I've been playing on and off since 2014 when I learned it out of curiosity and soon after pirated the game 'Governor of Poker 2'. I played it like a maniac from the time 2016-2017, meaning I hardly did anything else in my freetime. Then I suddenly stopped ... from one day to the other it stopped being fun to me and I picked up my former hobbies again. Then in last fall I began playing again, but as a normal pastime without being hell-bent on ever gaining a lot of winnings from it. No, I'm far beyond such fancy dreams. And now, as a CC Platinum member I exclusively play the freerolls and am perfectly content with that. It's a fun, intellectual game and whether I win or lose doesn't alter my mood any longer (of course, I'm always aiming to end up ITM!).
An honest calculation of my winnings/losses over the years would most likely reveal that I'm only 100-150 euros in the red which I consider a fair price for countless hours of entertainment. Poker doesn't owe me anything.