Thanks very much for your kind words, everyone. I appreciate you all sharing your perspectives as well. Today at work was really hard, as some of it hadn't hit me last night. But I'm doing okay.
As for poker, things were kind of weird today. I started out playing 10PLO since it was running on Zone, but for some reason the tables were taking forever to fill for each new hand. So I switched to 25nl and 10nl zone.
Thing were pretty standard for a while, though I was bleeding. Got paid off in a few semi-thin value bet spots, so that was good and I was in profit, with 400bb on one of my 25nl tables.
I decided I was going to quit my session soon, and of course that's when everything went to shit. 3 separate times I took pretty believable
bluff lines and just got picked off by one pair hands (presumably by passive fish). I simultaneously stopped making any kind of hand. Additionally, the last 4 or 5 times I 3b I was either 4b or got called. And for the times I got called, my cbets didn't get through at ALL. Just a tops-of-ranges type streak, but still pretty aggravating, and meant I was hemorrhaging chips for the last 10 minutes or so. Went from +~$30 or so to -$40 in prob the last 5 minutes alone, which is never fun.
Anyway, technically still sitting on profit, with online roll at $200. Not bad especially considering Bovada's nonsense with the $35 taken out of my roll and replaced with a $33 tourney ticket.
I got a little heated at the end, just because literally nothing was going right, and an otherwise profitable session had to be tossed into the "loser" pile. Plus some of the stuff I was facing was absurd. But realistically, it was mostly standard stuff and just variance that it was all smushed together. I played pretty well, though I'm struggling mixing 10nl and 25nl.
I feel like 10nl to 25nl is one of the larger jumps in Bovada Zone games. Not exactly in terms of "skill jump," but in that at 25nl people start making different mistakes. At 10nl, people mostly still just call too much and aren't aggressive enough. At 25nl, people start making a variety of mistakes, including cbetting too much, and folding too much on certain board types.
So it can be hard to play these two limits together. Harder than playing 5nl and 10nl together, or 25nl and 50nl together, for example. I may just switch back to 2-tabling 25nl zone until I can mix in a table or two of 50nl.
Oh, and before I forget, here's another video I made, from the other night: